When you close your eyes and concentrate on what you’re experiencing you may find it causes you to ask yourself some pretty weird questions.
“Where am I?”
OK. It may seem obvious on the face of it. You’re in your living room, bedroom or wherever. But what evidence of that do you feel? You feel your bum and back against the chair, your feet against the floor.
But “where” is the feeling and “where” is the feeler? I used to think that my head is up here and the sensation (of feet on floor) is down there. But, with my eyes closed and concentrating on the present moment, I’m not so sure.
With your eyes closed everything’s black. Well, it’s not completely black you can see colours but it’s nothing to concentrate on, nothing to see. There’s no point of reference that says “you are here”. No distance. No scale. No comparison.
Sometimes when I close my eyes and I’m nicely relaxed I am aware of an incredible sensation of largeness. Suddenly I am not bounded by four walls or the limit of my eyesight. The result is the universe inside my head.
Try it now! Close your eyes, just briefly, relax and feel the immensity that is larger than anything you can imagine.
Now, where are you inside this universe. At what point are you? Are you outside looking in? Or inside looking out?
If you completely die to the past at every moment there is no “you”, no experiencer and experienced, just experience.
In my opinion, this brings us to complete selflessness. If there is no you, there is just being. So one is not concerned with one’s own welfare!
This may sound like a contradiction, given what I’ve been saying about selflessness, but when I started self-hypnosis I remember the feeling of complete contentment whilst sitting down and concentrating on my breathing.
And I remember it filtering into the rest of my life. A feeling of happiness coming over me in mundane situations.
I believe that it is this contentment that can suppress any nicotine, alcohol or drug addiction.
If I was happy no matter what – I was fed and watered and had no physical pain – why would I need a cigarette?